how should i feel?

i really don't know how to feel. my aunts husband just died, i mean i lived with him for about two years and i haven't seen him for about 3 years now. but i don't know.
anyways i really don't know what to do about this guy, i like him and everything but he got mad at me today just coz he thinks i have a boyfriend or whatever and he usuallly calls me but i guess he's not going to today. i'm falling real hard for him but i just don't know...my parents practically forbid me to even talk to him which is hard because we sit by each other in two of my classes and it's really easy for him to make me laugh and god! he has a georgous smile.
wow!!!!!wow!!!!wow!!! now i feel bad coz in this tragedy i'm talking about a boy but still.....
[[[i don't even think no one's going to read this but its okay coz i've been looking for some place to write all my feelings:]

parents

sometimes i just wish everything could go exactly like i planned. i mean i want to make my parents happy but if it means not talking to him, i'm not going to be happy and that kinda sucks. what's the point in even trying to make them happy when in the end im going to be miserable...kinda. it's not like me n' him are going to jump in the bed and go on at it. why can't the trust me but ive realized it's never going to be a win win situation between me and my parents with basically sucks.

first blog

well this is my first blog and i guess i should introduce myself

im jojo...you wanna know my reall name welll im not going to tell you lol

im 14 and i won't tell you wer i live lol.

today is thanksgiving [[big whoops!!